Nonsense

I'm sure you won't see me until it is too late... I mean yea I know we see one another just about everyday but I know you don't see me, you can't, no one will be ever to see me clearly. I would like to believe all of the positive possibilities for us but that seems selfish because I know that I can't have it all. I have come to the realization that I have to take what I can get with you because I would hate to lose all together and I feel as though you know this. I feel as though you know I am in love with, deeply, and no matter who's heart or whatever gets broken, I will be there for you. I understand you may not want to hurt me because  you think you are a certain way or whatever your excuse but then all you have there is an excuse and a weak ass one at that. We both know that shit is wack. If you saw me like you think you do, you would know heartbreak is something I or anybody who has felt this way for another is worth the risk. It's not the first time. We are both grown ass individuals so you and I know how something like this could turn out and all the obstacles that would come with us being together, especially with what we do and who with. It seems as though you have you want something that is t worth your energy, something that when it goes sour after  2 minutes you can have this grand epiphany about how this always happens and how you knew what it was from the jump. Yeah, how about next or any fucking time, you look for what's good, real, right beside you in your apparent blindspot. Cause believe I'll be here like a clown waiting on you, passing on that little bullshit that comes my way because I'm all in as I've always with these kinds of matters. And it's not like this happens all the damn time haha its the second time...ever. I'm supposed to talk to you and when I work enough "courage" to do so, you acknowledge I've said something and that you've heard me say something but won't listen. Shits so dumb it's hilarious. I know we can't choose whether we get hurt or not in this world...but we do have someday in who hurts us. I know that from that dumbass movie. That doesn't make it any less true. I chosen my heartbreak, if it comes to that, and I'm beyond satisfied with my decision. It was you from the day we first met that day at me and my boys had our BBQ when that accident happened on the interstate and you took off with an empty plate across that field. I told him that you were it and he told me that you were annoying and to leave it alone I could do better. I knew I was in love with you in that moment...you being a goober, you being so motivated and passionate about everything, being so beautiful even with your chopped off hair haha...and that was just when we first met. So it's understandable that my reasons for these feelings and shit have grown deeper with each day. Forgive me for falling to early...

Haha so cheesy!!!

That maybe but it's true and maybe one day you'll figure it out. Sooner than later, I hope :)

KHAYAS...