As a guy I am very succumb to the task of having sex. It is apart of my genetic makeup to cussing crave it like a fresh doughnut at Krispy Kreme when the light is flashing bright red. I am by know mean knocking sex at all but the crap gets old when its pointless it seems like. These girls that I am having sex with seems retarded and sometimes numb just to get a fix and I'm sure once I leave this coast and venture to other unexplored areas of the world I will have plenty of sex that means nothing but I will enjoy it. These females down here are just tired and boring, I am just just ready to move the cuss on and be the cuss out this place I guess. Just last night I was talking to one of the girls I'm talking to and I dunno I just had no desire to do anything except chill out at the crib and what not. She wants to hook up tonight before she leaves to go back to school but I'm not feeling so it wont happen because its almost like I'm bored with her. I know that sounds harsh but its more of a general thing with all the "friends with benefits" that I am involved with. I want it to have passion and all that with someone who at least have mild desire for or someone who could crash my party anytime ha. I mean I do have people like that in my life but I don't want them to be another booty call when I'm craving it.
So I play the awesome sport of Rugby. I play with a Men's League here on the coast. I play but not with the dedication as some of the others that are apart of the club. I have the Will of Fire inside of me and its burning for this sport more that when I was playing football in high school. It just isn't burning as bright as our captains. I feel like I can only attain where I want to be in this sport by fully dedicating myself by making this sport one of my top priorities along with other things. I need to work on that decide on whats important and I know for a fact that this sport is one of those things. I believe that I can dedicate myself to this wholeheartedly. This ties into my next topic being that SKRILLA!!
I wish we could just go back trading two chickens and a goat for something a person really wants. I know that is illogical with all the crap going on but its a nice thought. This is what runs my life at the moment that mother cussing money. I love it but this cuss is taking alot outta me, ya know, its almost like when you fall in love in high school with a girl/guy that doesn't feel the same way about you and the thought of y'all together is nonexistent. Money is that amazing female/male that you still got feeling trapped inside that wont go the hell away ha ha. Being just friends is better than not knowing money at all, you digg? Its an amazing feeling when you're around money but when that money go away, you cant do nothing and barely fend for yourself. I hate money controls the things we do in life. The things that I want to do but cant do and the cuss I want to make happen all come back tot he fact of me not having money and me having money. I know that was a lil confusing but I'm sure you get the basic idea. I know when I get money its like my first time seeing the cuss and I go crazy not knowing what I wanted it for in the cussing first place. But its always a battle I think with every person to spend that money on the proper things...the essentials. My priorities become cloudy every time I get paid, debating between things that I need and the cuss that I want. As I get closer to my leave date for the military, I can feel myself growing up, be less wasteful, and being my responsible and aware with money life and the things I encounter. I can realize my goals and see far enough in front of me to take the next step to the mountain top.
Remember readers don't forget to do It For The Kids and thanks for your time.
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